feelings..

I feel so lost. Its crazy how lost I am, I dont know what to do sometimes. Im only 13, I should not feel like this. Yet, I still do. You know how hard it is for your own parents to leave you? And then, you keep forgiving them? I need to stop, I know. It hurts everyday, like crazy. I came from the gutter and im still here. Thanks to some of the less great people in my life. Its kind of crazy when most of your family wants nothing to do with you. That hurts like crazy. But, then again, thats life. This is heaven, the world we live in. Hell is jail. Hell is abusive homes. You dont know what hell is until youve been through it. If you have been through hell and back you would know what I mean. Even the littlest things mean heaven, same with hell. If you have 40 billion dollars we get it. If you have that much money then spend it on one house. If you have 2 kids, then keep it to two rooms. Do you know there are kids out there that have never even seen a bed. Be thankful for what you have, cherish your life.